Hello HiShosh, Have you been able to track when or how you were triggered to contact or communicate with them? The “Reporter/Recorder” part is a program installed in all SRA/MKUltra victims so they can monitor you and others. I used to have a photographic memory of conversations that I could repeat verbatim when I was still being accessed, and I was aware of it – I just thought it was a cool ability I had. I didn’t know it was an actual part and program. Usually you’ll report to some main handlers. If you keep a record of who you feel you compulsively tell information to, or over-give information/details to, that could be a good thing to follow. Have you been able to track who your handlers are? If your abuse was through birth family, then it’s pretty typical to have handlers there…and most likely the ones you’d trust the most. Handlers don’t necessarily know they’re handlers either – they would also have their own reporter parts if they’re not conscious of it.
Are you sensitive to tones, or words or particular songs? (church hymns, or primary songs?) What about mail…like birthday cards? Are you still attending church or have contact with other church members?
Are you losing time?
Some of these things will really help you know where you are with it and can help you follow the clues there for you.